[He does feel like shit about it. Hell, thanks the to place he was before, he even understands what it feels like to kill someone you care about. But he's conditioned himself to only express feelings privately when he has them at all, and it's a difficult pattern to break.]
Am I to follow your pattern? [Despite how it sounds, he really isn't trying to be an asshole.]
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Am I to follow your pattern? [Despite how it sounds, he really isn't trying to be an asshole.]